It is partly my fault and partly just the way things worked out, but today didn’t go as planned.
I say my fault because I know I was lacking in self-discipline and I slept too long and didn’t start my morning routine on time.
But, things didn’t unfold the way I had expected either.
Have you ever had one of those days?
My main goals of the day was to make sure the kids did a good size amount of school work and to get my 2-year-old to his weekly library visit.
I was running behind. It was already 10:30 am and I wanted to get him to the library. I got dressed and him dressed and changed his pull-up(joy). Then we proceeded to spend the next half an hour looking for a complete set of shoes.
We had one shoe of both his pairs. One sneaker and one cowboy boot.
I had both other kids looking too (impatiently because they know when I go out they can pay video games). They pooped out on looking pretty quickly leaving me to scrounge closets and look under couches.
After a running around the house with my winter coat on (getting hot), and frustrated because there isn’t an actual PAIR of shoes to put on him, I gave up.
I put him in the car and drove to Target.
I went to Target reasoning that, after all, I had to get coffee, so I might as well get his winter boots too.
Yeah, I was the mom strolling around her 2 year old in cart with no.shoes.on.
After we found some boots, he began to get really moody and grumpy. But that didn’t stop me from buying a whole bunch of other stuff that I probably should have used coupons for and bought only when they were on sale.
Then he fell asleep in the car.
We never got to the library.
Happily, when I did get home the older boys had started school.
Day gets back on track? No.
Our internet pooped out in the middle of school.
So, I had to get on the phone with them and figure that out (which I did not resolve and they are coming out tomorrow).
While I was on the phone on hold I was trying to teach my 5th grader the different properties of matter.
Yes, you read that correctly.
“Ma’am, may I have the model of your modem please?”
“Density, son. D-E-N-S-I-T-Y.”
My day didn’t go as planned.
But in the middle of Target, as I was walking toward the shoe section, with a quick detour at Starbucks, I decided something.
Instead of longing for a day I had expected, I was going to embrace the day I was given. I had a quick talk with God, and I said, “God, things aren’t going the way I wanted them to. What are you trying to tell me? Whatever it is, I will thank you for the day and do my best with it.”
I decided I would take the day as it came. That I would not lament over goals undone, chores put off, school done through distractions…
I decided to roll with it. I said, “Show me Lord what YOUR plan is today.”
That is so hard to do as moms. It’s so hard to let go of all the hopes we had for the day, and just BE with them, however that may look.
I did get to the library later in the day.
They did some school.
Tonight we are watching a movie together.
Do you think I will ever find those shoes?