Children and Obligations: My Mistake

I decided to write this today when my teenage son was really struggling with the realization that he would be out of the house fulfilling obligations ALL DAY. He was really angry about it from the moment we went through the schedule in the morning.

Do your children ever react like that to your homeschool schedule?

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At first I thought he was just whining.  We had had a busy week, and I thought he was just trying to “get out of stuff.”

I admit it.

I heard myself saying: “You should see MY life. Give the drama a break, kid!”

I thought about all my responsibilities and obligations.  Laundry, dinner, dishes, clean the toilets, nap times, fun times, learning times, social times, get kids to appointments, make sure they are growing and thriving, make sure they are maturing spiritually, etc., etc., etc.

And my own concerns: am I eating healthy, am I spending enough time with the grandparents, that friend that is ill, the house is a mess, etc.

And then I saw it.

This issue wasn’t HIS problem.  It was mine.

That makes me so sad to say that.

The fact is that I (me! Moi!) have been feeling overwhelmed with MY duties and all the people I answer to. I have been struggling with all the people and places I am obligated to.

And I had transferred that pressure… right on over to him.

He’s 13.

We grown ups have a lot of things on our minds. I am sure you can come up with a healthy list of items that are pressuring you right now. Take a moment to think of some.

Now imagine transferring that feeling you now have to your child- how would they handle it? Probably not well.

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Now don’t get me wrong.  I am quite the opposite of the mom who protects her kiddos from every little thing that might cause them inconvenience.  I do think they have to live up to their commitments like the next guy.  I do expect them to challenge themselves and do new things. I don’t expect them to be babies forever.

BUT…

How am I teaching them to handle it?  And… is my approach to “schlump” it onto them and say “deal with it kid”?

So you know what I did? I said, “Son, do you need a pass?”

He replied, “A what?”

“Do you need a pass from all your duties today?  Do you need to just go home and do your own stuff?”

You should have seen the look on his face.

“I can DO THAT?”

I said, “Yes, sweetie, you can.”

And he was relieved. And happy again. And felt understood. And acknowledged. And experienced God’s Grace. And it went a long way toward building a positive vibe between us too.

Do you put unnecessary pressure on your kids and not realize it?

Here are some more articles that may help you figure this topic out in relation to your own family.

Signs You Are a High Pressure Parent

Parents How to Help Your Kids Handle Pressure

 

 

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When Your Day Doesn’t Go As You Planned

It is partly my fault and partly just the way things worked out, but today didn’t go as planned.

I say my fault because I know I was lacking in self-discipline and I slept too long and didn’t start my morning routine on time.

But, things didn’t unfold the way I had expected either.

Have you ever had one of those days?

My main goals of the day was to make sure the kids did a good size amount of school work and to get my 2-year-old to his weekly library visit.

I was running behind. It was already 10:30 am and I wanted to get him to the library.  I got dressed and him dressed and changed his pull-up(joy).  Then we proceeded to spend the next half an hour looking for a complete set of shoes.

We had one shoe of both his pairs. One sneaker and one cowboy boot.

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I had both other kids looking too (impatiently because they know when I go out they can pay video games). They pooped out on looking pretty quickly leaving me to scrounge closets and look under couches.

After a running around the house with my winter coat on (getting hot), and frustrated because there isn’t an actual PAIR of shoes to put on him, I gave up.

I put him in the car and drove to Target.  

I went to Target reasoning that, after all, I had to get coffee, so I might as well get his winter boots too.

Yeah, I was the mom strolling around her 2 year old in cart with no.shoes.on.

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After we found some boots, he began to get really moody and grumpy.  But that didn’t stop me from buying a whole bunch of other stuff that I probably should have used coupons for and bought only when they were on sale.

Then he fell asleep in the car.

We never got to the library.

Happily, when I did get home the older boys had started school.

Day gets back on track? No.

Our internet pooped out in the middle of school.

So, I had to get on the phone with them and figure that out (which I did not resolve and they are coming out tomorrow).

While I was on the phone on hold I was trying to teach my 5th grader the different properties of matter.

Yes, you read that correctly.

“Ma’am, may I have the model of your modem please?”

“Density, son. D-E-N-S-I-T-Y.”

“Ma’am?”

My day didn’t go as planned.

But in the middle of Target, as I was walking toward the shoe section, with a quick detour at Starbucks, I decided something.

Instead of longing for a day I had expected, I was going to embrace the day I was given. I had a quick talk with God, and I said, “God, things aren’t going the way I wanted them to. What are you trying to tell me? Whatever it is, I will thank you for the day and do my best with it.”

I decided I would take the day as it came.  That I would not lament over goals undone, chores put off, school done through distractions…

I decided to roll with it.  I said, “Show me Lord what YOUR plan is today.”

That is so hard to do as moms. It’s so hard to let go of all the hopes we had for the day, and just BE with them, however that may look.

I did get to the library later in the day.

They did some school.

Tonight we are watching a movie together.

Do you think I will ever find those shoes?

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The Bible Journaling Break Down

Do any of you Bible journal?  Or have you created a “war binder” (as in the movie “War Room”)?

Well, I must be behind the times, because I JUST discovered these topics in the last two weeks.  I knew people were coloring in their Bibles, but I didn’t know if was a THING.

Most likely I didn’t know about it because, well, I have three kids, I homeschool and work from home…etc. etc. etc. Hobbies? Who has time for hobbies?!

Anyway, I came across it because I have been watching a ton of my new favorite Youtube-r The Homespun Wife.  She is so enjoyable to watch and listen to and she is very established in both scripture and wisdom. I usually listen to her as I am prepping my kids lessons for the week or responding to emails. I think I enjoy her so much because of her southern accent.

So, what is Bible journaling?

From what I can gather, it comes in a few different forms.

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Coloring your Bible

First of all, and this one is very popular, you can purchase Bibles with pre-printed pictures that you are able to decorate and color.  The Inspire Bible is one of these.  I bought it last year, and proceeded to leave it out in the rain: ruined.  😦

That is what I would call “level one” Bible journaling.

REALLY, REALLY Coloring your Bible

Level two is illustration.  Some of these amazing women take these Bibles and turn them into works of ART.  My mouth dropped open as I watched video after video of this young woman turning a page of scripture into something I would hang on my wall.

Scripture Writing

Level three is what I will call scripture writing.  In scripture writing, you are spending time on just one scripture, meditating on it, praying over it, as you write it out.  And of course, decorating and illustrating the page too.

War Binders

Now, let’s talk about War Binders.  I remember the movie War Room (never saw it, I KNOW!) and the woman’s “war closet.’  While I love that idea, we don’t all have an entire closet to turn into a prayer room…so along came “war binders.”

War binders are basically a way to organize your faith and prayer life. This is based heavily on the book Fervent by the actress who starred in the film.  She says we need to have an “attack plan” because certainly Satan has an attack plan on us!

Women are making these things like ka-razy!  Some of them are plain, some of them are amazingly complicated.

They divide them into sections and many women have chosen to write out their prayers in sections (like: prayer requests, prayers for self, things you are grateful for, etc).  In addition they (of course!) decorate them.

These concepts inspire me.

First of all it’s wonderful to see so many women in the Word of God (especially young women). But, also, it makes your time with God important, personal and you take ownership for what you are reading.  It makes you SLOW-DOWN and be with God…something that I think, as women, is really hard to do.

So…are you game?  Do you already do this? Tell me about your binders or your bible journaling below!

I will be doing a post to share my Faith Binder with you soon!

If you would like to learn about Bible journaling, click here.

If you would like a list of free printables for your Bible journaling, click here.

 

 

What Homemaking means to me

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I recently participated in a fabulous week-long homemaking conference. The conference was organized by Young Wife’s Guide creator, Jami Balmet and her husband, Jason. It’s an annual online event that they run.

I was dubious at first. I have my own definition of what the term “homemaking” means to me and I wasn’t sure it would be helpful for me to listen to 25 messages about what homemaking meant to other women. I was so wrong!

First of all, many of those women shared common beliefs with me. That I am called by God to be a homemaker.

Let me explain.

I was still pregnant with my 13 yr old when I decided I didn’t want to go back to work. I was an inner-city guidance counselor (which I LOVED), but, with my pregnancy, I realized that I could not juggle the work like and the home life well.

Being the type of person I am , I decided I needed to do one, and (hopefully?) do it well.

Well, like I said that was 13 years ago and all the time I considered myself a work at home/stay at home mom. It really wasn’t until this year I adopted the term, “homemaker.”

The conference covered topics both practical and spiritual. For example there were messages about de-cluttering and organizing, but also messages about our spiritual motivation to do do.

One of my favorite speakers, Katie Bennett, reminded us to:
“Do everything in love.” 1 Corinthians 16:4

That rung so true with me. After 13 years, I wasn’t doing things so much in love anymore, but, rather for pure survival!

What a perspective change.

Do the dishes…in love.
Wipe the counters…in love.
Change that diaper…in love.

Yes! It really lifted to my spirit to realize that since I am home, and God doesn’t seem to be changing that anytime soon, I need to be motivated by the scripture and by God’s perspective in the job I am currently doing…being at home.

For more information on this annual conference, go to: Young Wife’s Guide.

Road Trip to Gardeners Supply in VT

Oh gardeners!

While vacationing up in Vermont, I went to one of my favorite places: Gardener’s Supply in Burlington, Vermont. This place is such an inspiration to visit and I took lots of pictures to share it with you!

Gardener’s Supply started in 1983 and doesn’t just sell gardening products. They have a mission to change their local world by bringing organic food and farming to Vermont. They are located in the Intervale, a 700 acre floodplain, which until the 1980’s had become a neglected, un-managed mess which, sadly many people had begun to dump unused cars and other junk onto.

Almost 1,000 tires were removed when the cleanup process began!

But today, with much effort, it has rebounded with farmland, a community garden, several Intervale friendly businesses and homes.

Welcome to Gardener’s Supply!

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The first thing you see is all the plants they have outdoors.  Unlike a big box company, the people who work here own the company, so, they love plants and treat all these babies like their own until they go home to your house.  They were extremely well taken care of.

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They sell a variety of flowering plants and shrubs, vegetables and fruit plants and trees. Also unlike big box stores, GS plants are still blooming and happy vs. being shoved onto a clearance rack where they wilt and turn yellow.

Even this one, which I almost brought home –

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Gooseberry bush…kind of a cross between a blueberry and a grape.  I tried one!

This is the entrance to their “test garden” – these hangers are being tested and should go on sale in a year.

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I want these wall hanging planters as soon as they goon sale. I would say they are a success!

These kitties caught my eye.

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Totally cute rock kitties.

Let’s walk inside…

They have an amazing assortment of gardening tools and helps. This is the place to go when you really have a problem or need a solution for something going on in your garden. For example, I have a fungus attacking my plum tree.  I went to the counter and talked to a knowledgable employee about it and she told me just what to buy.

It’s like shopping from their catalog, but in person.

They have hummingbird feeders, plant stakes (of all kinds), organic fertilizers and treatments for your garden problems, seeds (lots of seeds) and planters.  They also have things that are hard to find like Winter Rye and Wheat (not available online), and cloches. Check out these unique gardening tools:

The Dirty Little Digger

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Raised Bed Cultivator

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Strawberry Supports

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Do you love succulents and cacti? Gardener’s Supply has a stunning greenroom piled high with all kinds of tropicals.

There’s so much more to see, it’s hard to do it justice.

I hope you enjoyed these photos as much as I enjoyed taking them.  Happy gardening!

 

Thinking of Homeschooling Series: Talk About Your Fears and Concerns

This Fall I am heading into my 6th year as a homeschooler. We pulled our oldest out of public school after he completed 2nd grade and began that Fall. But, it had taken almost 2 years to get me to that point.

I had been thinking about homeschooling since he was little (maybe 2?).  He was always super-inquisitive and I dreamed of having the kind of lifestyle where I could build my boys’ lives from around the home and not from around their school schedule.

I wanted to do it…really bad.

But I was afraid.

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For one thing, my husband was tentatively supportive, but had his own concerns about socialization and their future.  Would they be weird?  Loners?  Would they be “behind” their peers in public school? I really didn’t know what to tell him.  I had those fears (a little less so) too!

Another one of my fears was the I have had a problem with anxiety and depression during my parenting years…well, before that really.  But it’s a lot harder when you’re a mom. I wondered if one day I would wake up down in the dumps and it would stretch into weeks of being down in the dumps?  How might something like that effect their education?

I wondered if I would be able to be with them all the time . Would I go crazy? Would I begin to resent them? Would just the sound of their voices drive me K-a-razee?

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I am an extrovert.  So I don’t mind being around people a lot of the time, but there comes a point when I need quiet, thinking space.  I know I am not the only one.

So, yes I had my fears.

What are some of your fears?

-financially struggles
-chronic disease
-unsupportive family members
– that you might be isolated from others
-feeling unqualified to teach your kids

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It is important to identify your fears in advance. Not for the purpose of overwhelming you, but to give yourself a plan to deal with these issues if they do arise. And much of the time..guess what? They don’t even come to fruition!

In the next few posts, I will be going through homeschooling concerns and we will try to come up with new ways to think about them and have a plan to address them if they happen!

What are some of your fears as you begin this school year?

 

 

 

Secrets Homeschool Moms Keep

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Every homeschool mom has a secret…or two. You know, things she doesn’t talk about in normal conversation and especially NOT with people who don’t homeschool for fear they would not understand, or even worse, judge.
I do. You do.
Things we are a little bit ashamed of about our homeschooling journey.  I have experienced or felt all of the things we are about to discuss at some point during my homeschool journey (5 years).
The purpose of writing about it here is so that we can bring things out in the open and remind ourselves to not be ashamed of things we don’t need to be.  Also, by sharing our feelings, moms, we can get help!

My kids act like they hate school

I have said this before…I thought when I began to homeschool, my kids would be so appreciative of my efforts on a daily basis, that they would sit down, ready for school each morning with smiles on their faces.
Ha!
I know. It sounds silly.
They don’t. They still complain about school, give me a hard time, whine and resist doing work.
I had to realize…they are KIDS. Kids do that.  It’s not your fault.  It happens.  What matters is how you handle it. But don’t be surprised when it happens.

Sometimes I don’t feel like doing school… for like for a week or two

I get tired of the school routine.  I am a bit of a wander-lust, so after 2 or 3 months of the same routines and expectations…I get really bored. I need something different and interesting.   That’s who I am . That’s not wrong.  You, after all, are HUMAN, mom. You have needs too.
I have learned that if I go “school-lite” for a few days it helps tremendously. I make sure I get refreshed, it gives me new perspective and the kids can a break too.

My kids can be a little ‘weird’ sometimes

My kids get excited about some things.  Like Mario and Minecraft, like the latest Youtube video they have seen about the “Secrets of Cats.”   They want to talk about it. A lot.  It can be off-putting to me…as well as their public school friends. Because, not surprisingly, their friends have other interests.
My older son is also completely capable of holding a debate (politics!) or discussion (the merits of all the game systems since the 1980’s) with any adult.  Adults can be a little weirded-out by this. It’s actually a GREAT thing that he has this skill. And I always appreciate the adult who engages him and reacts with pleasure.

I have regrets about homeschooling or I feel like a failure

I wish that had done more outside stuff when they were young.  I wish that I had spent more time in the Bible. I wish that I had focused more on writing.
If you have spent ANY time at all homeschooling, you have regrets and wishes.  Things you wish you had done more or better.
All homeschool moms have this list.
I have felt like a failure…in many areas, mathematics, discipline, diligence… the list goes on.  But when I look back I try to focus on the things we DID accomplish.  The trips we have taken, the artistic creations that have made, and yes, even the math and language arts concepts we have pushed through
If you need help…ask for it.  There are so many moms out there that have surmounted the same challenges you are struggling with whether it’s writing, division, reading, science, and daily routines.

Sometimes I am lonely or sometimes I get sick of being at home all the time

Being at home with your kids all day long can lose it’s appeal when you really need some grown-up time. It also takes dedicated to work to keep up friendships. You have needs, and it’s perfectly understandable to express them and seek out ways to meet them.
Sometimes when my husband comes home from work, I run away (to Target)  because I need to out of the house! Just to SEE something different from my four walls lightens my mood and refreshes me.  Maybe for you it’s a long walk, or working out, or listening to music  or going for a long drive.
We need friendships. We need friends who homeschool and who don’t.  We need women to talk to about our parenting challenges, to say “Am I crazy??” to and to receive support from.  Don’t isolate!
I have really found some great friends at the children’s section in the the local library when I was there with the kids. I also am part of several support-type groups online. And then I have a group who I go out with.

We don’t mean to keep secrets.  But we feel ashamed. Don’t worry, you are in good company – every homeschooler has these thoughts and feelings.  You are not alone.

 

Evaluating Your School Year

We have FOUR MORE WEEKS of school left (I know!) and I am shifting into the mode of wrapping up subject matter and thinking about how the year went. In general, I think the year went well.

This is our 5th year schooling from home, and to be honest, I never thought we would get this far. It took me so long to decide to homeschool, and then, after I began, one of things that gave me comfort was the thought that “I can stop at anytime.”  There were days where I thought: “What am I doing?” and even this year I have considered throwing in the towel. But here I am.

This is a great time for you to evaluate how your year went.

Let’s go back to the beginning of the year.

I have started making goals for both of my boys at the beginning of each year. This helps me have loose (and I like them really loose) expectations for them.

For my both my 4th and 7th graders, I set personal goals, spiritual and academic goals at the beginning of the year and about three weeks ago, I took a look to make sure we did some of them.

Let’s talk about them in further detail.

Academically speaking, I wanted my 7th grader to strengthen his skills in the areas of division, fractions and decimal work.  We were able to get to the first two in earnest, but just touch on the last one.  I also felt strongly that I needed to start exposing him to engineering science and until about 3 weeks ago, I had no idea how we were going to get there. Then a fellow homeschooler invited my boys to participate in this program run through the Department of Defense called Starbase. Both of my boys had a week-long experience using Computer Aided Drafting and Design applications and learning about the engineering design process.

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For my 4th grader, I wanted him to improve his writing skills. He has dysgraphia, so writing in general is super tough and exhausting.  I employed a tutor one time a week this year to help him answer comprehension questions and write.  He has done a lot more this year than he would have with me alone.  And to my shagrin, he writes a lot more with her, than me.  At least it’s getting done.  She does use CANDY as a reward.

I also wanted him to start writing cursive and we just began that about 4 weeks ago.

Spiritually speaking, I wanted the younger to start praying out loud and I wanted my 7th grader to start having his own, individual time with God. He now reads every night before he starts his nighttime routine.

Some things that didn’t happen…and yes, there are definitely a few…

I wanted my 7th grader to write a biographical paper. We started to…but I don’t think we will finish it in time.

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One side note, is that although we didn’t set it as a goal, we read A LOT this year. We pushed through a ton of books and audio books.  Insert happy face.

Time to evaluate! How do you feel like your kids did?  What did they improve in? What do they need to make continual progress in?

 

 

 

Homeschool Happenings: Library Edition Greater Hartford Area

I often go to several local library sites to try and see what sort of classes and events they are offerings hoping we will find something FREE my kids will love.  Since I am already doing all that work, I thought I would share it with YOU – especially if you are a CT Homeschooler!

When I do my research, I am always looking out for unique or timely topics, things for ages 9 and up and events which are academic or will enhance an academic subject.  I will not be including things like “story times,” as most of us can find these pretty easily.

Always check out your local library’s offerings and make your presence as a homeschooler known to the librarian!  She/he may be willing to host or create programs for homeschoolers if they see the need!

Descriptions are taken directly from the library’s websites.

Enjoy!

Let’s Make a Kite -South Windsor Public Library
March 22
3-4 pm
Ages 5 and up.  We’ll make different forms of kites that you may thake home and fly. Please register for this program on 3/14 at 2pm.

Go West Young Peeps – South Windsor Public Library
March 29
3-4 pm
For children in grades K-3. Using information from PBS Learning Media, we’ll explore the rotations of the earth and shadows. No registration is necessary

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The How To Festival – West Hartford Public Library
Sat. March 25
10-3pm

“Forty or more local experts, enthusiasts, hobbyists, and professionals will share their passions with our community. Using the library’s public spaces, both inside and outside, participants have up to 20 minutes to introduce a topic, provide instruction, or do a complete demonstration, which is repeated for a changing audience.”  (from the WH library website)

Spring Homeschool Program – Manross Library Bristol
Ongoing on Thursdays

Learn about China, Japan, Russia, Scandinavia, Mexico and USA.  Accepting new students age 5-12.

Green Screen Photography – New Britain Public Library
March 15
4pm

Age Group: Teens
Learn about special effects used in TV and movies by making your own trick photography! Community Room.

Minecraft ClubRocky Hill Library
March 2, 9, 16, 23, 30
4pm

“Join kids in grades 2 to 5 to play Minecraft! Register your account to play onour server 24/7 or use a guest pass. Drop ins welcome.”
Minecraft Club – Berlin Peck Library
Wed. March 22
2-3:30 pm
Children in grades 2-12. Prize drawings and snacks provided!